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perception towards chinese studies.

After studying for 3 sems..
when people find out that im taking chinese studies
this were some of their reaction

"aiyoh..still taking chinese ar..study for so many years not sien wan meh?"
os:talking so much crap ur mouth not tired wan meh?

"wah ur chinese must be very kuat la"
os: apa tu kuat? use for boiling soup that wan ar?

"ur course must be like kacang la..afterall u from chinese school wat"
os:kacang?? ur brain only like kacang la k..try memorising all the dynasty for a start..

"ah girl, taking chinese studies ar..very odd choice leh..what u gonna do after graduate?"
os:aunty, me odd?? if no one taking chinese studies who gonna teach ur grandson chinese language? u? malay ? indian? u sure u r chinese?

"i must be too free to take chinese studies, i have much better things to learn.."
os:free?? come la..translate all the classical litereature into modern text for me..

i have absolutely no ideas why people will think this way
im proud of my language, history and culture
i got lot more to learn
cause my knowledge is way behind
no doubt that philosophy are filled with plenty of wisdom
but classical literature is really not my cup of tea
i wanna learn something new..
something more near to our era..

sadly that most of the people out there always think that taking science will ensure a good future
they really dont know the value of chinese language
pity them from the bottom of my heart
how nice if i can knock their head with a hammer...
evil me...haha

懒

并非薄情寡义

只是过于现实

懒得去管懒得交待懒得理会

即使知道也没有意义

SMILE

My friend said that i dont smile that often anymore..
maybe u're right..
im undergoing all the stress and stuff..
lost mood to smile

although i didnt put a long face for the entire day
but i slowly realise that i hardly smile..
i feel that im no longer me..
where's the sunshine that live in me?

For the past few days
i've been thinking how to write a poetry
but some how the sad feeling didnt come to me.
dead man...assignment gonna due next week...
where all my crazy ideas??

Exam gonna be in 2 weeks time..
im dont feel that im well prepared
and im bold enough to put a countdown timer in my blog..
leafong ar leafong...
dont be such a kia su

Im feeling depressed, unsure, unsecure
sigh,anyway i will try my best to smile more often.
promise..

appearance

Is beauty so important that everyone juidge each other by appearance?
well..after some time i begining to realise that appearance is really so so so important to some one..
as if people dont mind if they get a empty box wrapped with fancy present paper.

People tend to tolerate and forgive any pretty ladies easily
but shout n yell at those less attractice ladds who make minor mistake
this aint fair to treat a lady..
the pendidik moral subject is meant for this kinda people

During online chatting session
I've met a couple of people who start the conversation with

"hi leng lui, can i be your friend"
os:sorry??if im not leng lui means u dont wan be friend with me la??

or "wah..how come u so leng lui wan har??"
os:i mana tau..ask my mom la...she is the one who give birth to me..stupid question

eh..leng lui, can we exchange phone numbers? next time pass by ur area can ask u out yam cha..
os:wt..sorry lo..i dont give my hp no to che kor pek lor...no interest to yam cha with u pun..balik tidur la

this is a super no no..welcome to my block list...
enjoy the rest your time being blocked by other leng lui

Recently i have bumped into an old friend
guess what he cant recognize me..
like i've undergo plastice surgery after my form 6
he was scratching his head
having a hard time remembering my name..

I know i was quite chubby during school days..
but its not that different right..
im still me ...the good old leafong minus the "roundness"


whoever who juidge my by my appearance i think its shallow..
I have brains too alright...
B-R-A-I-N-S
wake up man..

exam=lost..faint...

recently i have this weird feeling
i feel kinda lost..
like im heading no where..
(where r u guys when i needed u???)
the exam time table is out and i was wondering whether im able to revise all my syllabus in time..
phew..uni life is not easy at all..
and after looking at the past year question
i totally freak out..
the question is like asking u to answer where the quotes came from..
duh...i aint no computer...how to memorise all??
siao ar~~~
not me..i think my lecturer is too expert in this field..
so for him is like kacang writting out all those quotes...
a friend of mine told me that confucious is confusing..
huahaha...he is a man with wisdom..
but classical chinese is really confusing..
a single words can mean so many things...
my dear four confucian classic..
please dont be so mean to me....
im really trying my best to understand..
bless me..
stay strong....

考试

呈现完了

面对即将来临的考试

难免有些恐惧感

再看了past year question

感觉到无限的危机感

恐惧、危机真的那么可畏？