sweet suprise

I realize that i forget to complete my japanese homework when i arrived in class today
ish...not a good excuse to cover my laziness n procrastination
its too sad to see im getting forgetful at this age.

*shake head..tsik tsik tsik...lazy lass*

my lecturer started to discuss the answer
slow down ur speed sensei
i cant copy in time, mo ichi do please...
it is like chasing the bullet train..
gosh...

my lecturer then ask us to construct our own sentence
whoever with the best sentence will receive a small gift from him
yeah...i love the word G-I-F-T..
so i decided to give it a shot
and i come out with this sentence

おかねが　ありませんから　たべものを　かいません。

translation:Because i've no money, i cant afford to buy food.
my lecturer burst into laughter
to my suprise
my lecturer decided to give me

the wasabi coated peanut from japan...

oi shi~~~

i cant describe how much fun i had during the japanese class last semester
i remembered that i said i gonna eat newpaper when my lecturer taught us new vocabulary
like eat and newpaperm,
so my sentence is like that

新聞を食べます。
Translation: newspaper+eat

guess im always the one who come out with lotsa crazy ideas
and i can always relate most of the things to food..
presentation and assignment due on week 10..
wish me luck friends...

找回自己

我迷失了自我，
破碎的自信心，
迷茫的前程，
开始分辨不出哪个才是真正的自己。
有些沉默寡言，有些强颜欢笑，
有时看似很开心，但是却隐藏着许多不为人知的故事。

那天跟清龙和惠如出去也是个临时决定。
很多事情就是那么巧，
刚好星期六日文课取消，
刚好惠如需要到low yat买些东西，
又那么刚好放假清龙不必回拉曼乐团教课。

三个住在不同地方的人，
就短短的一小时之内，
相约在bukit bintang的monorail会面。

我们的相识也是个偶然，
就因为华乐，
缘分将我仨相聚在一起。
不中断的话题，
源源不绝的笑声。

心中的话，
可以轻易说出。
笑容，
可以出自内心。

我已经忘了，
其实生活就应该这样，
不懂为何，
我的心情顿时开朗了起来。

逛了一整天，
拥挤的人潮，
却挤不开浓浓的友谊。
一顿温馨的晚餐，
互相夹菜给对方，
没有做作的态度，
完全来自真心。

送了惠如到monorail,
我们再前往轻快铁站，
天公不作美，
下起了毛毛阵雨，
共用一把伞，
走了一段路。


很高兴听到他们说

“诶，你还是跟以前一样。”

原来我还是我，
似乎从他们的言语中看到了一些曙光，
照耀我前方的路。

啊~这迷路的羔羊，
已找到回家之路。

好喜欢跟他们聚在一起的感觉。

心情

月有阴晴圆缺，
人生路也未必会平淡
可能不小心会被石头绊倒后，再跌入深渊里。
心情不好时干嘛？

其中浮现了这几种想法：

哭？
伤眼，黑眼圈已经很深了，再加上浮肿的眼睛。我怎么去见人？

暴饮暴食？
增肥容易减肥难，到时衣服统统穿不下，需要买特大码的衣服，欲哭无泪。

自残？
笨啊你~身体发肤受之父母，这么做大大地不孝。

绝食？
以为胃是铁做的吗？读多点书来增加尝试吧。

骂人?
吃了火药咩? 那么多力气去骂人，那么多朋友给你骂？省省啦。。

疯狂购物?
傻的咩，以为你家里开银行哦，那么多闲钱花。
现在经济风暴，省点吧，
未雨绸缪这句成语听得明白吧。。

Blog:
可以发泄心中的不满，
又可以练练文笔
说不定还有人会感同身受。

以上除了BLOG之外
其他的做法请勿效仿，否则后果自负。
别为了一时冲动，
而作一些令自己后悔莫及的事。
很多事情其实一旦想通了以后，
其实并没有那么糟糕。

这些日子以来，
难为了我的朋友
谢谢你们的陪伴与鼓励
我会尽量地保持心情愉快。

rainy day

During one rainy day
i looked outside the window
and wonder

When i get old
Will i be a lonely soul?
looking for someone to hold
and yet shivering alone in the cold.

as i was once told
i have to play my role
not finding somebody to scold.
and obstacles make me bold.

Happy 6th Aniversary

It has been six years since i know u

from the day that i hardly know to able to perform in front of a crowd

from stage to stage we perform during each festive season

from nothing to something we worked as a team

from Kulim,Taiping, Terengganu, Kelantan to Penang we perform

Terengganu
Ao Xiang I

Kulim
Ao Xiang II

Kelantan
Ao Xiang III

Penang
Ao Xiang IV

Solo Competition

from a complete stranger to im obsess chinese classical music till i gotta leave for my tertiary studies

from every joy to every tear we shared


we put in efforts and learn from mistakes


from every footsteps printed on our memory


we stood stronger as the years goes by



a perfect leader nor a perfect musician i might not be



but im truly proud of being a part of the orchestra



i love u Chinese orchestra of SMJK Chio Min

Happy Belated Birthday~

p/s:
my orchestra anniversary supposed to be on 9Th February..paisey huh
i choose the pics randomly, so if u didn't see ur pic don't merajuk k...

emo

Her words are like a spear

Piercing deeply into my heart

I can slowly see the blood oozing out from the wound

tears dropping down at the edge of the eyes

innocent and yet the one who get the blame

my attempt of doing my best is never enough

self-esteem vanished in the thin air

efforts are broekn into pieces

my heart is torn appart

when is the scar is going to heal?

and

who's gonna care for this poor soul？

獭祭

满瓢泪，心疲惫，
躯体累，人憔悴。

好久没有试过那么委屈。
难道参考古籍是不对的吗？
准备许久，却被批评得一文不值。
还被说是獭祭。。我还丰年祭咧。
把我扬琴拿来，直接弹给大家听~~
真不甘心，所有的心血都进水沟了。
早知如此，干脆直接从网站copy and paste下去就拍拍屁股走人。
现在做功课、找资料是为了求学问还是为了迎合老师的口味？

被老师纠正错误是天经地义的，
但是不断地被打岔，我该怎么呈现？
思绪不断地被打乱，乱得像一团毛线。。
好歹也让我说完一句后再打岔吧。。
辛辛苦苦做的power point 却被老师说成圣诞树。
圣诞树=作美美拿来摆，内容空洞。
hello..我每个背景图都是选择跟题目有关的照片。。
到底有什么不对？不合您的口味？
以后就以黑白灰作背景。。

翻古籍参考前人的说法，
从老师的观点同等于拿资料出来放，
让别人觉得自己好像很有墨水。
是，我是不够水准去标那些没有经过校订的资料。
至少我尝试了，人不是都从错误中学习的吗？
一生出来的是天才又有多少个？

好咯。。我知道我不厉害啊。。
把我当成炮灰，别人看不起我，已经很习惯了。。
fine,但是我尝试去理解、去明白。
很显然我的努力没有人看到。。。

不能避免有人会说。。
你那么脆弱的咩？
被老师讲几下就哭。。
怎样？大学规定说在大学范围之内不能哭是吗？
这该怎么形容。。觉得自己的表现可以再好一些，
很用心筹备，却没有得到别人的认同。。
好像做了无谓的功课，走了很多冤枉路。
也许说重要的在于过程，结果并不重要。
狗屁，结果就是被喷了整脸屁。。
过程我是很享受啦，至少我每个字都查了古代汉语字典，
认识了不少词汇。

还有另一件事，
这是带丽走后，我第一次孤军作战。
当了三个学期的合作伙伴，
少了她，好像少了些自信心，
想起她，难免有一些感伤。。

只希望下次老师讲评时可以公平些。。
除了让我大受刺激以外，
还让我过了个难忘的生日。。
就把老师说过的当成是我特别需要改进的地方吧。
您的礼物，我收到了。。谢谢~

SOS..mercy please

presentation during tutorial class as usual
suddenly our lecturer turned on her machine gun mode
she pointed out every mistake in the presenter's slides..

imagine all the pressure
i'll pee in my pants if i were in her shoes
that was really scary
this is like a big slap on my face...ouch
i have insufficient info..
back to introduction, history facts, explanation,
im having that imbalance feel again
the super insecure feel.

while i was a freshmen,
i remembered i was once questioned by my lecturer till i was speechless
i was unprepared, unsure, drop dead blur and the 1st group to present...
wtf..no one tell me what to do..
apalah senior sekalian, jaga ur junior a bit can ?
i look like a dungu...
Im so gonna die...

i have exactly 7 days till my presentation
is there enough endurance to let me overcome the great stress?
this time i must be very firm and sure about the explanation to avoid being question by my lecturer.

i rush straight to the library after class for additional references and info about my poem
nah..books are limited again

only manage to find one paragraph related to my topic
-_-''||

anyone going to new era college tomorrow?
i need the reference books badly

A day in the Library

My friends and i headed for new era college library in kajang
after switching lrt to ktm and walking a near distance,
we are finally there.
phew..the weather is really hot over here...
im sweating

some guys must be wondering
ur library no book meh??
Ya..u're so right..cause some of the books are transfer to kampar for our junior..
as i've written earlier *click here for further reading*
we need to refer to lotsa reference books for every single assignment...
this is the tiring part..
my next presentation is two weeks later..
i better come out with convincing facts or else i'll be so dead..

cats napping on the book shelf and some body's beg..

hope the poor fella is not allergy to cat
miao~
wish i can have a short nap like 'em
my eyes is like a freaking panda bear

Im looking for book regarding Dream of the Red Chamber红楼梦
and The book of odes 诗经
ish.. only manage to get Dream of the Red Chamber

The other day while i was at my uni's library
the librarian was so helpful
she's so patient to help me search for the books
sorry for all the trouble
feel like hugging her after she found me the book that i needed...
she's my best librarian of the month
*sayang*

who say chinese studies is easy??

try reading this...

be amazed that this is our normal routine..
i can tell u that what we learnt during primary and secondary schl is pretty limited
so dont think that we're just learning mandarin

worries

Feeling depressed
as days goes by
the worries get deeper

As i walk further
im alone in my darkest day
can someone please switch on the lights?

I start wondering
where i am and where should i be
the pressure keep building on me
can i complete my assignment in time?

I might not be smart
but i try not to procrastinate
can i cope by myself?
my heart sank each time i think of my thesis

Do i hav a future?
im not seeing any now

沾光

每当面对类似这样的事情时
以什么态度来面对才是最恰当的呢？


情形A

友人：欸，原来你认识XX的啊？
LEA：对啊，以前参加活动接触过。怎么啦？（马的，那条死仔在我背后插了那么多针还敢说认识我。。没有死过）
友人：哦。。那天在某某聚会，他说认识你。
LEA：哈哈。。（yew..不要拿我当话题）

情形B
友人：诶，你的昵称是leaf啊？
LEA：做么？我用很久了啊。（拜托，中学时代就开始用了）
友人：没有啦，那天跟某某msn时，他问我认不认识leaf wor。我还在想是谁，原来就是你呵。
LEA：晕。。哈哈。。（老兄，跟你不太熟的，不要用我的名来认识别人，要收版权费的。）

*马的。。难怪最近一直打喷嚏。。

有时不太能接受别人跟我装熟，
尤其是那些拿我来“搭桥”的那种人。。
我不是你那块桥梁的木头ok。。
please tolong不要有下次。

对我而言，熟络就是熟络，陌生归陌生，决不混为一谈，应酬除外。
朋友问这样分类难道不麻烦？
鲜少往来的朋友，突然间跟你嘘寒问暖、献殷勤，好像曾经与你同甘与苦那般，像什么？
送你两个字“虚伪”，再送三个字“假惺惺”。

年轻人，看开点啦。
把事情看成这样不就好过点吗？
一、交友广阔，四海之内皆兄弟。
二、有某些程度的利用价值，人人都想攀关系。

明明就很介意，但有拼命在安慰自己。
心里又好像不平衡了。。

super-ultra-extra-gifted language skill

while i was online chatting

to my unpleasant surprise

this is my 'best' ever Chinese new year greeting
and it really lighten up my day...

enjoy

*the following content might be disturbing*
children under age of 13 must be accompanied by parents

click the picture if the words are too tiny

amazing right?
assorted vulgar words..
i guess one need not to be fluent in english to excel in vulgarity
he score with flying colours and his english teacher will be so proud of him...
what a genius...

hey people out there

will u do the same thing if someone refuse to give their cell phone no?

tell me tell me?

let me know...